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Confused.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011 || 11:51 PM
Every person has a different perspective in looking at things, doesn't matter what 'things' means cos I'm not going to be specific here. No doubt, people have various kinds of thinking and ideas whether they are brilliant or not. I learned it the hard way, that nobody should defy anybody's decisions unless any of us has attempted in being in one's shoes. It's never going to be fair in life but we can always try to make it minimum, the damage, the change. While we struggle so very hard just to satisfy that longing for things to go back to the way they used to be, fate slaps us hard across the face, shouting to ask us to back off and finally start to live. This may sound cliche but really, life's like that.
Sometimes people change. They change so drastically that you couldn't believe it because it's as if the former them don't exist and didn't appear in the first place. You wouldn't believe it, not until the very fact has settled for long. Whatever it is, it makes you think twice, thrice and never stop thinking. You so desperately want to put a halt to this because it troubles you more than necessary and you hate hate hate it. Most of the time, you don't agree with the things they do because you think you have a better opinion but think again, who are you? You can't possibly whine about things forever.
Thinking out of the box, putting yourself out of the entire situation and look at it from a different view. You realise you get a totally different picture from what you've seen before. You know better simply because you get a clearer, bigger picture of everything. From your angle, you see people you've once cared about. You see them, but you don't see them crystal clear. You try to reach out and before realising, a wall is built up between you and them and that's the end of it. You can do nothing any longer. You want to rescue them from the misery that you're very sure they're gonna regret soon but you can't. You want and you can't and you feel worse than being helpless.
You think of the ending you desire and imagine the bliss you'll feel. It's just like doing someone a favour silently and taking the only credit which is seeing the person smile.