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Thorns among the roses.
Sunday, October 16, 2011 || 1:18 AM
I've always thought the world is a perfect world, because this is what people around me portray. Until I finally realise it's not the same anymore. The world hasn't changed, it's me who's been too naive for my own good. I felt disappointed for a while until a close friend came telling me that it's good to know the bad sides of people sometimes. In this case, it's better early than late.
I'm not dedicating this to anyone, I just want to spill things that have been bothering me quite a bit these days. From what I observed and talked about very frequently recently, I see people who are pretentious. Why put up such an act when you know not the entire audience believes in you? Why make so much effort to create lies that you think nobody eventually knows? Why act like you're such an angel when you know too well that you're the exact opposite? Why don't take down that mask so that people get the chance to see your rotting face? Why make certain people so miserable just because of your conspiracy? So many why's and what I want to know the most, what the hell happened to your conscience?
Who are you to assume things? Who are you to talk so foolishly without even contemplating enough? Who are you to jump to conclusions without acknowledging what's real or not? Who are you to think that you are so important that I would be affected because of you? Who are you to think I will be jealous of you? Hell, sorry to say babe, I think I have a better life than you because at the very least, I don't pretend all my life. I've always wondered, if I were you, I'll consider turning over a new leaf for the sake of the people who choose to believe in your words.
I thought being around people is all about the joy and contentment until people showed me otherwise and proved me wrong all this while. I'm glad to finally wake up from this wonderful dream not because it ended, but because it existed in the first place. Frankly, I thought everyone is an angel but I'm too oblivious of the existence of the devil sides. I thought the best of everyone and in the end, people disappointed me and they're actually proud of it. I wonder why. I thought they are folks who don't judge, don't side and don't interfere. This obviously is the exact opposite of it all because they've done all those and sad to say, they're awfully wrong and never would know that. If I were the old me, I'd go straight to them and say it in their faces but no, I've changed too.
After what happened not too long ago, I came to a realisation that confrontations lead to nothing but a chaotic scene as the catastrophe. This time around, I decided to leave the matter for what it was so that nothing changes. Looks like it isn't working any better too. Thing is, I don't care anymore. After all, who am I to tell people what's right and what's wrong when they wouldn't even attempt to listen to what I have to say? Who am I to speak for myself when people are so blinded that they don't seem to know they're living in total denial? But then again, who am I to say things they don't wanna hear, who am I to wake them up from their fantasy, who am I ever to talk as if I matter so damn much?
I'm immune to it all.